I was going to start this off with a really bold, all-encompassing statement like “the root of all problems is insecurity”, but then I thought about it for a minute, and realized that’s nonsense. Some of the worst problems I’ve ever dealt with professionally have come from people who were utterly and hopelessly secure about what they were doing, and in fact, those problems were in all likelihood largely a result of that confidence. Big surprise — most of these people were incompetent.
So anyways, like everything else, professional insecurity isn’t compatible with a snappy, Seth Godin-esque bumper sticker of a blog post. But it is a pretty big problem, and I’ll go so far as to say that most of the big problems I’ve had to deal with that involved talented, competent people resulted largely from insecurity about something or other. That being the case, it seems like something worth digging into a bit.
what do I mean by insecurity?
Not unlike Fight Club, the rules of workplace insecurity are short, and kind of meta. Most importantly, the first rule of workplace insecurity is that it’s almost impossible to exhibit workplace insecurity if you’re worried about your workplace insecurities. I know, what a relief.
What I mean by that is that everyone is insecure about something. That’s just life. Professional insecurity only becomes an issue when you lose track of it, and start thinking it’s something else, like a conspiracy to disrespect you, or a plague of implausibly exclusive incompetence that somehow affects everyone but you and a few people who allow you to complain to them. If you’re working on your insecurities — if you’re thinking about them, and being critical of yourself but pragmatic about how you can improve… well, it’s very unlikely those insecurities are causing anybody problems, even if they keep you up at night.
The truly dangerous insecurities are different, and they’re largely hidden. They often do sneaky things like project themselves onto others (so you can justify them), or create distractions that keep you from addressing them. Those are the ones I’m talking about here.
why are talented people insecure?
I’ve worked with a lot of talented people, and some of those people had insecurity problems that hurt their careers and/or their teams. Most of those people worked through those issues — in a few cases, I’d like to think I helped at least a little — and hopefully the rest will someday. With all of them, though, there were a couple of insecurity-causing scenarios that kept popping up.
(NOTE : There was almost always only one of these per person, although parts of one can overlap onto another.)
- They took a disingenuous or unfair shortcut in their career, and deep down, they know they did.
- Their life is based on achieving excellence relative to others, and as you get older and join higher performing groups, standing out from your peers gets harder.
- Their personal identity isn’t really any different from their professional identity, so when they aren’t an awesome professional they feel like they aren’t an awesome person, and that scares the hell out of them.
- They don’t want to do some portion of the work that’s necessary to truly excel (or they don’t think they have the ability to), but they aren’t comfortable admitting it.
- They are objectively bad at something they think they (or people in their role) should be good at, and even if it doesn’t really matter, it makes them crazy.
- Their job has required them to bullshit a lot (try raising capital, selling something that isn’t really done yet, or spending too much time arguing in favor of your subjective opinion, it’s hard), but they’re an inherently honest person and they feel, in some way, kind of guilty (whether they should or not).
I’m sure there are more than that, but even this list is a pretty broad swath of experiences that all contribute to the same kind of toxic behavior and thinking. In my experience, that behavior includes :
- lack of empathy, and the feeling that empathy is often excuse making for others
- a tendency to see weaknesses in a functional area as a result of someone else’s inherent, personal flaws
- seeing the (often negative) outcomes you expect as inevitable, and any evidence to the contrary as someone’s attempt to deceive
- frequent false positives that validate bad things about other people, or ideas, that the same person would normally detect as obvious confirmation bias
- shutting down conversations or necessary arguments as “unproductive”, “pointless”, or “something we’ve already resolved”
- exaggerated self importance (as if everyone cares as much about the person’s perceived weakness as they do)
- projection of your perceived failings onto other people
- the inability to concede portions of an argument and the tendency to conflate multiple, separate issues into a single, all-encompassing thesis people either “get” or “don’t get”
All of this sucks, and it’s frustrating whether you’re dealing with a friend, a boss, or someone you work with and are trying to build up. But… it’s not the end of the world, by a long shot.
the homer simpson boxing approach
For me, the only thing that’s ever allowed me to help someone deal with toxic insecurity is trust. Unfortunately, trust takes a long time to build — unless you’re a perfect match for someone socially, you aren’t going to build real trust overnight by going to a happy hour or on a weekend retreat. No, instead, you’ll work with them on something that triggers their darkest insecurity, and they’ll lash out at you in one of the many ways listed above.
At that point, I like to break out what I think of as the Homer Simpson approach, which is based on the awesome episode of the The Simpsons where Homer becomes an amateur boxer after his doctor determines he has an inexplicable condition that allows him to take repeated blows to the head without incident. Homer is a poor athlete and a terrible boxer, so his trainer (the always wonderful Moe the Bartender) convinces him to simply stand there while his opponents continually punch him in the face. Eventually, they’d become exhausted from all the punching, and Homer would then gently push them over.
It’s a great episode.
The point is, the reason many people act defensive towards someone else is because they are scared of how that person will react to something. Most of the time co-workers have aggressively approached me with complaints about a colleague, it’s a pre-emptive strike over an issue that multiple people (including the person complaining) are partially responsible for. Most of the time people react poorly to constructive feedback (sometimes by criticizing something unrelated I’ve worked on), they’re really just nervous that their work sucks, even if it doesn’t. But these aren’t firmly held beliefs, or even particularly well-thought out ones — they’re irrational, emotional fears, and they don’t last unless they get reinforced.
Hence, the Homer Simpson approach. When someone is exhibiting severe symptoms of insecurity in their interactions to me, I just… let them do it. I let them complain (although I gently remind them of oversimplifications or exaggerations in their complaints). I let them yell at me. I let them call me hypocritical, out of touch, blind, irrelevant, stupid, ignorant, and everything else in the book and simply focus on not doing anything to confirm or reinforce those assessments.
Eventually, unless someone is truly damaged (this does happen), they simply run out of defensiveness-fueled-rage, even if it takes multiple conversations. At that point, more often than not, you can get them to simply tell them what they’re really worried about. And once they do that, you can actually work on it.
postscript : the gandalf corollary
The Homer Simpson Boxing Approach is awesome, but it’s not a flawless answer — there are times where an insecure colleague will respond to your patience not with exhaustion and eventual trust, but by doubling down on the intensity of their attacks, or by incorrectly detecting weakness and turning those increasingly aggressive attacks on you.
When this happens, I’ll admit that I’ve been forced to apply the Gandalf from The Lord of the Rings Approach, demonstrated here by Gandalf himself.
This is one of my favorite scenes in any movie, period, mostly because it reminds me of the way my Dad used to deal with my notoriously explosive, self-righteous temper. He successfully applied the Homer Simpson Approach to my sister and I for years, constantly forcing us to exhaust our insecurities and defenses until we finally just gave up and leveled with him. But in certain moments, like Bilbo, we’d forget who we were talking to. Dad would talk to us as equals by choice — until we started thinking, maybe, just maybe, he was out to get us too! The subtle, clear change in voice he’d use when I was a kid to draw a line (“Now wait a minute…”, or “Hey!”) was never sharp, or defensive like us. It was just strong, almost like an audible reminder of the difference between making an argument based in fear and an argument based in wisdom. I’m pretty sure both me and my sister did that exact same cowering/running in for a hug thing that Bilbo does, except we were probably seven years old at the time, and Bilbo was like, a hundred and twenty or something. But still.
There are a million wrong ways to break out The Gandalf, so I’m incredibly careful with it. I’m sure lots of people (maybe me, sometimes) think they are doing it, but are really just acting on the same types of defensiveness and insecurity they think they’re disarming. But done properly, it’s often the defining moment in a professional relationship.